Sux ar...the curse is back again..fuck it....studies/club/money/love/family nothing is going well right now... who would understand how i feel...i learnt not to judge any ppl anymore... when u are not in tat person's shoe..u will nv understand how they feel..why they react this way or tat way..why they say this or tat... this time i have bitten off more than i can chew...schedule tied up...things unsettled...lazyiness set in...fustration come along...irritation from everything around me....no mood to do anything....want study no mood study..want commit to club..but lazyiness pull me back....want save money..easier said than done...family...being the eldest doesnt mean i shd voice out everything inside of me..going through the things in Cadc..i learn when to shut up..
its not tat i dun care or dun bother abt the things going on in my family..its just somethings are left better unsaid... and love..who would like quarrels..i nv get angry at u ever since i love u...i know u are not in a good mood and doesnt mean it with the things u say when u are angry...tats why i dont get angry at u...i know u feel sucky when u are angry.....i duno wat to do when u are angry...nothing hurts me more than u being angry at me...
no money can take from parent...
family problem..got alot alot time to settle them..
studies...things will work out eventually..can get help from friends
club..can get help from cub friends or seniors..
but love..i can ask help from no1...and the problems if left unsettled..bla..

If i would prioritize those things in my life right now...
my family would be most impt,
follow by u...
and then my brothers....
then friends...lastly studies...

i dun want anything to happen to our relation...i need u by my side...i really do...but for tonight..
i know u wont be talking to me...i am feeling very stuffed up at home right now...going out to have supper with my friends to loosen up abit...will be calling u when i go out later...