(150+75-60-110)=55

money comes and goes.. now winnings left $55 after losing 60 on portugal and 110 on holland..lol..

actually wanted to study 3 hrs daily in preparation for my MST..end up.. i think total add up got 3 hrs? lol...gpa gonna drop again.. saded.. sself-discipline is wat i lack..know my mistake but lazy change..watching euro every other night... sleeping in the morning.. waking up at night.. so siok.. almost can dun care about anything..
some may feel im waasting my time and a bit lifeless.. but being able to decide what i want to do.. like watching soccer with my friendss.. wasting ourselves from chivas/beer/vodkas.. is just.. so enjoyable.. sometimes.. its not the alcohol tats enjoyable.. also it not the match tats enjoyable..its the time spent with them tats enjoyable.. sigh.. feeling weird for these few days or am i feeling this way for quite some time liao..
normal de me.. lose away 110 dollars.. i sure will scold cblj till no tml..but
somehow.. i dun really feel the pinch of the loss.. guess im just overwhelmed by the things which i dun want to face ba.. running away from reality is fun.. but in the end.. i always have to face it again..been losinn appetite liao.. everthing taste so tasteless.. how how how..
realized tat i havent been blogging for so long liao.. maybe dun feel like blogging too much..guess i need a drink sometime soon again..
fuck tat MST.. it will be over in a week..